Today, *Blue has found his mark. He has been stalking me for quite some time under the guise of another name, and today, just like that, he came in and touched me lightly on the shoulder. “I am here.” he said in a whisper. I suppose I should be grateful that *Gray didn‘t show up in his stead …. But, like me, Blue continues to hold out a glimmer of hope. Nonetheless, he has dimmed the light and, for now, I am disheartened. ~ There comes a time in all our lives when we must own our actions. No one else can do that for us. Nothing will ever change for you as long as you continue to do what you’ve always done. I no longer have it in me to continue hitting my head against a brick wall. Enough is enough. I have, in conclusion, become fed-up and now I deserve a stagger as my knees buckle. Own your addiction, child. Choose to be sober. Choose life.

*Blue is the color of sadness;

 Gray, disappointment

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